Monday, June 28, 2010

Believe, Hope, Wonder: My Last Post (For Now)

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It has been so much fun these last two months posting about my life and having you guys read and comment!

I am off to camp for my fifth summer there in two days. I will miss all of you so much! Again, if you want me to write to you, please send me your address in an email: juhcub@gmail.com

Camp. Camp is something you'll never understand until you go. You meet the best people and do the best things. I have waited ten whole months to see all of my friends. Can you try to imagine not seeing your best friends for ten months? I do that every single year. But those two months of camp feel like a lifetime. And those ten months feel like a minute. These people at camp are people like no other. I love them. And if I was never able to see them again I really don't know what I would do with myself. Do you know the expression "You don't really know a person until you've lived with them?" Perfect example! I know more about some of my camp friends than I do a lot of my school friends. It's a little scary, but totally true. And that's totally okay. A lot of people in my school don't understand me one bit. People in camp do. They totally get me and understand who I am. Camp is just unexplainable.

I say goodbye to all of you because I will not be posting seeing as though there are no computers in camp or any "devices that are capable of WiFi connectivity."

Anyway, goodbye to all of you! I loved every second I spent with you this year! I made so many new friends and I hope we can stay friends for the rest of our lives :D I love you all and the next time I see you will be in high school! :D

GOODBYE!!!!!!!!!!

Your Beloved Friend,
Jacob

Thursday, June 24, 2010

Wow

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I can't even but "Believe, Hope, Wonder" as the title for this post. All I can say is wow.

I don't even know what to say. I don't even know what to fell: happy, sad, anxious, excited, depressed? No clue.

Today, Middle School ended.

As Averageteen said "We shouldn't be sad that it ended. We should be happy that it happened." I totally agree. I am SO happy that I got to meet everyone! I'm so happy that I am a part of your life and you are a part of mine!

I wish everyone the best of luck in high school! I hope I can see everyone again!!!

I love you guys!! :D


Your Beloved Friend,
Jacob

Wednesday, June 23, 2010

Believe, Hope, Wonder: It's Over

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The year has come to and end. The amazing journey of Middle School all comes to an end tomorrow, June 24 2010. I have made so many new friends, lost touch with so many old ones and I'm anxious to meet more.

I walked into Felix Festa Middle School confused. I didn't know how I would ever see my friends. I thought I would get lost and never find my classes. I was afraid of how hard my classes would get. Boy how I was wrong. I was just so breathless on the first day of school. I had no idea what to expect. I knew I would get used to everything around here seeing as though I'm going to be in this school for three years! That seemed like a lifetime. Little did I know, three years goes by faster than you can say your own name.

My only friends were the people from my Elementary School and a few others I knew from outside of school. I wanted to meet so many new people, but I was afraid to. Did anyone else feel that way? Well I did. After a few days, I realized that my Elementary School was one of ten that filtered into this school. I also realized that we were 70 kids out of 800. And then I realized I was 1 out of 800. I now knew that there was no way I would be able to be with my Elementary School friends. There were so many classes and so many people, it would be impossible. I made it a goal to meet a bunch of new people. I wasn't as successful in sixth grade as I was in seventh grade, but I'll get there! So sixth grade went by really fast. Too fast. And I was already going into seventh grade! AAAAHHHHH

Seventh grade rolled around and here I was. Back at Felix V Festa! This year, students who excelled in sixth grade were put into enriched classes. I was happy I could be part of this because this was a way to meet a lot of people who had the same interests as I. I have to say that I met SO many people in seventh grade. So many great people who I hope I can stay friends with for my entire high school career and beyond! But one thing I totally forgot to mention which is what I would like to bring up now! I was still friends with the same group of people I've been friends with for the past six years. We all sat at a lunch table together in the black and white cafeteria. That period of the day was the worst 45 minutes of my entire life. We're talking serious ridicule. That made seventh grade a living nightmare. But what got me through it were my amazing new friends. I don't know what the heck I would have done without you guys!! :D Anyway, that made seventh grade my best and worst year. Just like that, finals were over and summer had arrived.

Eighth grade came around before I was ready. I was so nervous. This year I was taking all ninth grade courses in 8th grade. Scary stuff! Especially because I had Dr. Kalmar. But I knew I would get through it because I wasn't going in alone. By this point in time, I was no longer friends with anyone from my lunch table last year and I had very few friends from my Elementary School. This year was about my new friends, my bar mitzvah, and school. I have to say, 8th grade was my best year by far! I loved every single day of it! I can't really explain why, I just know this year was my best! And you guys made it that way. I continued to make new friends, but I lost a few from last year (besides the people from my lunch table). But if we were really good friends we would have stayed in touch. I hoped and hoped that my friends from seventh grade would be in my classes. Sadly for me, a lot of them weren't. A lot were and a lot weren't. So I knew I would make a lot of new friends this year. And so I did. The only problem with that is, a lot of them are going to the other high school. I probably have just as much people going to one high school as I do the other. Felix Festa's plan of keeping us separated didn't work out too well. I actually said goodbye to one of my friends today who is going to the other high school and I told her I would see her again. After I said those words, I thought to myself. And I asked myself "when?" When would I ever see them again? I pray it's sometime soon!

Well, today is the second to last day of Middle School. Tomorrow I officially become a ninth grader (of you wanna be all technical, I'm becoming a 10th grader!) and begin high school. I'm as scared as anyone can be. But then I think back to that first day of Middle School. And I think about how nervous I was then. I take a deep breath, and smile. :)


Your Friend,
Jacob

Tuesday, June 22, 2010

Uprising

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If you haven't noticed, I have been posting lyrics to a few songs I'm in love with. Well here is the lates song that has a lot of meaning to me. It's called Uprising by Muse.

The paranoia is in bloom,
The PR, the transmissions, will resume,
They'll try to push drugs to keep us all dumbed down,
And hope that we will never see the truth around,
SO COME ON!

Another promise, another scene,Another package not to keep us trapped in greed,
With all the green belts wrapped around our minds,
And endless red tape to keep the truth confined,
SO COME ON!

They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
And we will be victorious!

SO COME ON!

Interchanging mind-control,
Come, let the revolution take its toll,
If you could flick a switch and open your third eye,
You'd see that we should never be afraid to die,
SO COME ON!

Rise up and take the power back,
It's time that the fat cats had a heart attack,
You know that their time's coming to an end,
We have to unify and watch our flag ascend!
SO COME ON!

They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
And we will be victorious!

They will not force us,
They will stop degrading us,
They will not control us,
And we will be victorious!
SO COME ON!

Monday, June 21, 2010

Believe, Hope, Wonder: Facades

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We all have facades. Maybe some of us don't know it, but we do. If you hide your true emotions by pretending nothing is wrong is pretty much a facade. But this post is about my facades.

This post is incredibly honest if you ask me. I'm telling you a lot about myself.

Facades. My facade. Everyone knows that I'm always happy and enthusiastic and such. I am. Sometimes people even hate me because I'm so happy. But no one really considers anything about that happiness. They just either laugh or roll their eyes because I'm thirteen and so immature but that is why I'm writing this post.

I'm thirteen years old. I'm called names and made fun of because I'm not "chill" or "mature" for my age. Everyone thinks I'm a big goofy child in a thirteen year old's body. But I'm not. I'm not immature. I just want to have fun. Why the heck to I need to be "chill" at thirteen. I'm serious when I need to be and I'm fun the rest of the time. I am mature. And anyone who is a close friend of mine knows that. Anyone who says I'm childish and immature, you obviously don't know me.

Now about facades. I'm always happy if you have noticed. Why am I always happy? Well do you think it's easier to be happy? When you're ready to break down and cry in front of people, isn't it just easier to smile? Well I find it that in school when I'm sad, it's just so much easier to smile than sit and mope and bring everyone else down. Even on the worst day of school when all I want to do is run home and smash everything in site, I smile and walk around all happy and excited! If my fake smile can make someone else feel happier and better in the day than I feel accomplished. If I make someone happy even when I'm not makes me happy. Making someone feel good when I'm not really gives me a good sense of what happiness is. Even when I make someone happy and I'm happy it still makes me feel so good!

I feel like the guy from "One Ordinary Day With Peanuts." He and his wife would switch being good and bad to make some people happy and some mad and sad. I am totally the guy that makes people happy. But I don't switch and make people mad. But I don't go to school every day to make people happy! I just happen to make people happy and that is what brightens my day :)

Your Friend,
Jacob

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Believe, Hope, Wonder: Change!

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My how things have changed since my last post! And yes I have not posted in a while but now I am so here we go!

Change has happened all over the place! In terms of friends, love, academics, and so many more!

In Middle School, you start to discover who you really are. You do that since you were born, but it isn't the same as Middle School. Are you the same person as you were in 5th grade? Most likely, you would say no. You make new friends and sometimes leave the old ones. I can tell you I'm only friends with very few people from my elementary school. I discovered I was a different person and liked different things than those people so I made new friends with similar interests. So back to discovering who you are, we barely are the same person when we leave elementary school to now. Sometimes people overlook how important Middle School is to our lives. But the major thing about Middle School is that we learn who we are, and in high school we start to really "learn" how to be who we are. With peer pressure and classes that make us want to tear our hair out, we discover what we can and cannot handle. We went into Middle School one person, and came out a completely different person. CHANGE!

With love, I have a lot to say. And it really isn't about "love" more about feelings for other people. THIS POST IS NOT ABOUT WHAT LOVE IS OR ANYTHING OF THE SORT!!!! Anyway, in Elementary School, maybe we had a crush or something, but that is totally different now. The topic of love comes up a lot now. Some of us believe it, others do not. Some believe we are incapable of feeling love now and others believe we aren't ready for it. No matter what, our mind has gone through major change and only you can determine if you know what love is and if you feel it. NEVER let someone tell you love doesn't exist or we can't feel it yet because those are their thoughts. And just because some smarty pants scholar says love doesn't exist doesn't mean it's true. His or her opinion is just as valuable as yours! So the point of this is that we have gone through major changes mentally. And because of those changes, are we capable of feeling love yet? Or does love exist? Please do not give your thoughts on love for this post because THAT'S NOT THE MESSAGE I'M TRYING TO DEPICT! Thank you :D

Now for academics. In 2nd grade we learned about the dinosaurs and the Jurassic, Triassic and Cretaceous (I doubt those are in order!) This year we learned thousands of years of history, algebra, read literature capital L, and learned the geologic history of earth. That sounds a lot different from what we learned back then. And it only gets harder. I'm not trying to scare anyone, I'm just trying to show you how things have really changed in all aspects of our lives!

Well now I'm sure you can see how much you have really changed. I know I have. So just take a second and think about what you used to be like five years ago, and now look at yourself. It's remarkable.

Your Friend,
Jacob

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Believe, Hope, Wonder: Love? - A Response to Jake's Post

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Wow Jake, what an interesting post you had on dating, love, heartbreak etc.

Well first I totally agree with what you were saying about "The Legits." Their parents obviously told them they are allowed to date whenever in their middle school and high school career. This presents two problems. One would be that they focus on relationships and their personal life rather than studying which results in D's and C's. The second problem would be that they don't really have feelings for the person they are asking out. Does anyone really think that when a "legit" asks someone out, they have real feelings for the other person. From my own experiences and hearing about other people's problems, we "geeks" as Jake called us, actually have real feelings for the person we like. Strong feelings that actually mean something. So back to what I was saying before, this is a problem because you have a relationship completely built on the physical stuff. Would you honestly believe me if I told you when the popular people date they have deep conversations about their feelings? Or would you believe me if I told you they just sit and make out? And this is where their life starts. And their life will continue to have relationships based on physical things. When they are older and they walk into a place of some sort, they'll walk over to the "hottest" person in the room whether it be a boy or girl. They won't walk toward the person with the best personality and the one who really cares about life. And it's really sad to say, but that is really how it works. Even in movies when people are in bars, they go up to the "hottest" person there. Life shouldn't work that way.

I do agree with Jake in the sense that we should evaluate ourselves to see the real reason why we are holding ourselves back. I certainly disagree with rejection being irrational. Everyone wants things to work our the way they want them to, and most likely they don't. When someone asks another person out, they want them to say yes, but the truth of the matter is, a lot of the time, the other person says no. And there are many reasons for why they say no. The most likely reason would be the fact that they don't share the same feelings. Or their parents don't want them to date. Or they don't like your friends etc. There are a million reasons. Rejection is a scary thing. No one wants to be rejected. But maybe being rejected is the only thing that can help us move on?

Well in my opinion, we should be allowed to date. Not in the sense of parental allowance (I am preparing to talk about this later in my post) but in the sense of our capabilities. We are more than capable of having a boyfriend/girlfriend. We have similar interests and other similarities that we can share with someone else. And if two people have feelings for each other, why not go for it? We sit around and don't do anything about the person we like. We don't tell them and we don't act upon our feelings. Today could possibly be your last day (a morbid thought indeed but you'll see where I am going with this) and the person you have feelings for may never know you had feelings for them! We really have to live like we're dying when it comes to love and whatnot. So back to what I was saying before, if you like someone, don't sit around and wait for something to happen. Either take action in the sense of fight for the person, or take action and get over them. I hope I'm making sense here.

Another thing I really want to bring up is the whole "parents not letting us date." Like I mentioned earlier, the "legits" as Jake calls them, their parents allow them to date freely. Why is it that our parents won't let us date? Is it because they don't want to see their little kid kissing and having their bf/gf touching them or putting their arm around them or holding their hand? That could be. But the main reason why I believe parents don't want us dating is because they don't want us to get hurt. With raging hormones, we like someone else every other day. Or we like the same person for years. It all depends on a multitude of different factors. But parents don't want their child to have their heart broken. Heart break is inevitable. There is no way you can prevent heart break. Unless of course you get married and live the rest of your live with your FIRST love. Other than that, your heart shall be broken. And don't live under a rock to prevent heart break. Because you learn from that pain. You always will. But parents want to protect us from that for as long as possible. It's a good decision, but a bad one as well. They don't want us to get hurt. They don't want to see or hear us crying over the one we "love." But preventing us from dating sometimes can cause us to want to rebel even more. It's a very complicated thing with parents. I'm not going to go into talking about dating with them.

So these are my thoughts on Jake's post about these same ideas. Whatever your thoughts are, please leave them in a comment! If you have a situation regarding this post, send me an email and i be more than happy to help! My email is juhcub@gmail.com.

So Jake, is love all we need?

Believe, Hope, Wonder: The End Where I Begin - a song that has so much meaning to me :)

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Sometimes tears say all there is to say
Sometime your first scars wont ever fade, away
Tried to break my heart
Well it's broke
Tried to hang me high
Well I'm choked
Wanted rain on me
Well I'm soaked
Soaked to the skin

It's the end where I begin
It's the end where I begin

Sometimes we don't learn from our mistakes
Sometimes we've no choice but to walk away, away
Tried to break my heart
Well it's broke
Tried to hang me high
Well I'm choked
Wanted rain on me
Well I'm soaked
Soaked to the skin

It's the end where I begin
It's the end where I begin

Now I'm alive
and my ghosts are gone
I've shed all the pain
I've been holding on
The cure for a heart
Is to move along, is to move along
So move along
What don't kill a heart
Only makes it strong

Sometimes tears say all there is to say
Sometime your first scars dont ever fade, away
Tried to break my heart
Well it's broke
Tried to hang me high
Well I'm choked
Wanted rain on me
Well I'm soaked
Soaked to the skin

It's the end
End where I begin
It's the end
End where I begin

Sometimes we don't learn from our mistakes
Sometimes we've no choice but to walk away, away